sip of mery
story about my inner world,
something in between my heart and soul!
Coincidence of life is also life content, but without simplifying things
The last few months, I’ve been thinking about starting something. Now I’ve lifted the handbrake and am going into action—even though I don’t really need to lift the handbrake because all the cars here are automatic (I grew up in that part of Europe where you have to lift the handbrake if you’re planning to go somewhere-“haha”). And actually, I’m not driving, so that theory doesn’t make much sense at all, but it does if you step into my shoes—it makes sense then.
Spontaneously
stepping
slightly
Sufficient
zašto je i dalje Amerika – America- and how to make it
without or,
with a “thing”
can I get a small hot oat latte, no sugar? – sure – can I get your name?
mery, sometimes, thank you
Explore The Topics
I must see it
wish to jump
= I live
please, be kind
language- jezik roda mog
I’m Mery! A Croatian girl suddenly living in Northern California!
Grab a sip of my experience and dive with me into my journey called life.
So, yeah! Let’s be honest! That feeling of homesickness is more than welcome these days, and it’s also very popular and unique! Also, on the other side, you have to be “proud” of yourself! Proud of feeling homesick. Why? Easy answer—because you’re able to feel that “incredible” feeling. Feeling homesick isn’t for everybody, and it’s not the kind of feeling you can just share on the road with a stranger! I jumped right into my mouth there. It’s actually the kind of feeling you can share only with a stranger—if they are a stranger. You know what I mean? It’s not just that you feel lonely or different—everyone knows that. You might’ve felt that way before, which is why you left, right? Hmm… What I’m trying to say is that the noun homesick is a verb now (you’re actually doing something, taking action, so yeah, it’s a verb). It’s precious. It digs into a whole spectrum of emotions, putting a new level of yourself on the plate.
Actually, I visited NYC almost a year ago. Absolutely, without a doubt, the best place I’ve been. Ok, I only stayed in Manhattan, browsing around SoHo, Greenwich Village, Upper East/West Side, Chelsea (which I liked so far—market, street, bricks), Lower Manhattan! I just think anyone who’s watched NY movies, read books, or dreamed about that place can find themselves there. I also love to say, ‘Ok, let’s move there, but let’s have a safe place to stay.’ But looking at the world now, isn’t that statement valid for every part of the world ?
Are you creating your own expression, or are you allowing her to create you?”
SAN FRANCISCO
What can I say about the City? You know, I’ve noticed that a lot of people here don’t like it at all. You hear things like ‘homeless,’ ‘depending on the area,’ ‘dirty,’ ‘expensive’… maybe! I can agree with some of that, but on the other hand, I’ve started to love SF. It has a vibe. The architecture is unique, and you can hide yourself in a bunch of cute coffee shops, library stores, and just enjoy. Also, you can step into an adventure called ‘you don’t want to see that’ and smell a very untypical way of living. You can feel like you’re on top of the world, but also realize that down there is very close too
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In the end of the day, I feel the breeze, like spring is coming, and my soul feels full of blooms… being away doesn’t mean anything, but breathing in a new version of the blue ocean
When you live far away from your family, friends, and all your habits, you’re trying to create (as fast as you can—consciously or unconsciously) all new habits. But creating new habits with friends and family is not so easy. (Ok, I’m lucky in that sense, speaking about family, but yeah, with friends it’s not easy, and it takes some time and a lot of willingness.) When people ask me, ‘So, how do you like it here?’ I always say, ‘It’s good’ (I mean, that’s the typical American answer to everything—’good, good’—which makes my Croatian soul pretty upset sometimes 😁). But looking back, actually, it is good! But it’s also different, strange, far—so, yeah, I have to recharge myself with some kind of juice from time to time. (I know, that sounds super weird—like, what kind of juice are we talking about here?) You know what I mean? Hi, how’s it going?
I’m not the first one to say this, but why? Why is everyone (including myself) now baking sourdough? Is that just a trend? (Now I feel like Carrie Bradshaw, asking rhetorical questions.) But really, why? Do millennials just want to feel more connected to something we call ‘traditional,’ or is the idea of baking and making something with our hands actually giving us a new kind of confidence? In some way, we’re filming ourselves baking bread, just like our grandmas did to feed the family. But if our content of baking bread is making us money, I’m asking myself—what’s the difference? The smell of warm bread lets me go home, and it also gives me wings. Now, I’m thinking of opening my own bakery?! California is giving me the chance to discover totally unexpected parts of myself. Is that California, me in California, or my dream about California now united in my dear life? 😂🌸🤍
But what happens when you wake up one day and realize all your goals, dreams—they’ve changed? You’re seeking a new language, the people around you are totally different (sometimes too loud), you have to have some serious concentration if you’re planning to have ordinary, daily conversations! Also, constantly you have to be grateful because, “before,” you didn’t even think it was possible, and now you’re here, living your life- suddenly, you’re bilingual, but not fluent—still fine for small talk, but confused but totally happy her eto, tak je kak je i sad to tak je
thanks